It’s been a long time since I have just sat down with a glass of wine, put on some music, and poured my heart out into my laptop. After chatting with a friend yesterday, I found that it’s time.
Life, much like the weather, sunny and 75 one day and 29 and snowing the next, has me feeling like the weight of an elephant is sitting on my chest. In just one week, earlier last month, our basement flooded, the water heater needed fixing, and the dishwasher stopped working. I joked with my repairman that he and I were becoming intimate after his 3rd visit in the same week and he caught me working out to my guilty pleasure music.
I am happy with my workout routines and eating habits. Some weeks have been less productive than others, and some weeks have had more cheat days than I would prefer; however, I am learning to be easier on myself. I am still making progress, and I knew this journey was going to be a long one. It takes time to break years worth of habits, and I truly am doing the best I can. That’s all I can ask of myself.
I see the progress in my waist; I’m telling ya, if you want a smaller waist, incorporate “The twist” into your daily routine!
The most significant difference I’m starting to notice is how my clothes fit, and I have to be overly aware of this matter now, a lesson I’ve learned the hard way.
About a month ago, I was cooking, and I realized I was out of olive oil. I was still in my sports bra and leggings from my workout (I do kettlebell training after dinner,) so I threw on a hoodie and ran up to the convenience store just up the hill. I failed to realize I picked up the hoodie that has become somewhat loose in my shoulders and chest in my hurried state. I also didn’t notice that my sports bra became unzipped. If it hadn’t have been for the look on the cashier’s face, his eyes bulging out of their sockets and his jaw dragging the floor after I bent down to pick up the wallet I dropped, I probably wouldn’t have noticed at all.
When I averted my gaze to the source of his facial expression, I realized I had flashed him the perfect view of my lady bits. I stood as quickly as possible, looking anywhere but his eyes, and apologized profusely. The poor cashier couldn’t stop clearing his throat, and the woman standing next to him couldn’t contain her giggles.
Meanwhile, I have had to find a new convenience store.
School is going very well! I ended the first term with straight A’s, and two weeks into the second term, that streak is remaining!
My favorite class is “Understanding Movies.” I’m impressed with my professor. He has directed a short film, and it won all kinds of awards. He has also published a screenplay. He likes for us to break down specific scenes and apply the terminology of editing, cinematography, and acting techniques to our discussions. I am having a blast doing so, and I have received a perfect score on all three of the discussions I have made. I don’t say this to brag. I find it fun, and he tells me that I have excellent writing skills, and I clearly back up my points with comparisons between scenes to make it easy for the reader to understand. He has me wanting to write more about this for the blog. Expect some future blog posts about delving deeper into movies. Reely Bernie, I’ll make sure to let you know about those posts because I would love to hear your perspective on those subjects!
I have been spending my mornings meditating, writing in my Daily Stoic journal, and doing yoga. Recently, I have incorporated 2 Tbsp of apple cider vinegar mixed with carbonated water into my morning routine. I am also keeping a gratitude list, and it has helped improve my mindset. I am going to be posting a blog post about this soon, too.
I spent some time with my dad the other day. His brother passed away recently, and I went to the viewing with my dad to pay my respects, and mostly, to be there to support my father. I don’t have any ill feelings towards this uncle; we just weren’t very close. However, I do feel sorrow for those who were close to him.
Life is full of ups and downs, those of you I am closest to understand my struggles, which run deep, but I always try to make the best out of every situation.
At the end of the day, at least I can laugh!
Love & life lessons,