The Absence of You


Five years have gone by

since I’ve heard your voice

heard your laugh

seen your smile

felt your hug


The darkness rushes over me again

and I get lost between

where the child ends

and the woman begins


The pain still hates me

screaming lungs

tired breath

burning tears

and you’re not here to hold me


It  all makes sense

if darkness is the absence of light

this pain, my darkness

is the absence of you



I implore you,  if you still have your mother, visit with her often, call her tomorrow, and not just because it’s Mother’s Day.

Call her because you can. Ask her about her day, ask her about who she was before she became a mother. Ask her about her dreams, her passions, her fears, and her regrets. Listen to the things she has to say, really listen, and comprehend.

Make time for calls, and chats over coffee, and shared laughter. Squeeze every minute out of life with her, because one day, you’ll be where I am.

Wishing that you could have one more phone call, one more cup of coffee, and one more memory of shared laughter.

Happy Mother’s Day to all of you beautiful mother’s out there! ❤

Love & life lessons,




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15 Responses to The Absence of You

  1. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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  2. Sadje says:

    Lovely sentiments! Moms are precious and should be valued all the time.

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  3. Jessica says:

    I might just call her… loving the poem 😍

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  4. Brad Osborne says:

    A beautiful tribute to your mother, Kristian! Steeped with emotion and smooth as silk in its flow. She would be so proud of the woman you have become!

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  5. Laura Beth says:

    What beautiful words, Kristian. Thanks for sharing your heart, as you always do.

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  6. The V Pub says:

    It’s heartbreaking to lose a parent, especially so young.

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    • kristianw84 says:

      Yes, my life has changed irrevocably, and I can’t help but feel like I was robbed of time, but I wouldn’t wish her back for anything if it meant she had to endure the pain she did. I have my moments, but waves of grief have been striking me a lot lately.

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  7. Really lovely words and feelings towards your mum, and you are so right about what you said, lovely words, recognition, time and love should be given in life…I know as I lost my mother a long long time ago but I remember her daily…thank you Kristian for such a tender and precise message.

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