Just Let Your Love Flow

I find that it is increasingly difficult for me to keep me head held high under these chaotic circumstances the world is currently facing.

People are hoarding baby formula and charging higher prices for it than stores. What is wrong with people? Do people really lack empathy? Are people really that greedy that they would intentionally cause babies to suffer just so they can earn an extra few bucks?

It’s so disheartening, and while I have also seen a lot of good in humanity during these times, I have seen far too much bad & my head is spinning and my heart is broken.

I guess people’s true colors really do shine when they are put under pressure.

Maybe I am naive. I have been told my entire life that I am different than most. I don’t say this to brag, I’m just truly baffled.

My mom used to tell me that I came out of the womb as sweet as could be. She used to tell me stories about how even as a baby I was always so thoughtful. I can still hear my mother’s words as she would often recall the memory “You were just baby and Jenny (my mom’s best friend) was sitting at the table crying, you couldn’t even speak yet, but you held your arms out to her, and when she picked you up, you wrapped your little arms around her neck and hugged her until she stopped crying, and then you looked at her, placed your little hand on her cheek, and smiled.”

I have had numerous people commend me for staying with my husband as his disability progressed. I took a vow to love, honor, and obey through sickness and health. I thought I was doing what anyone would do, but apparently not? Do people really not take those vows seriously? Yes, it’s not always easy, but life isn’t always sunshine and rainbows, and just because he is limited on the activities he can do doesn’t mean that the love stops.

People also ask if I’m concerned that I’ll be widowed early. Of course I’m concerned, but that doesn’t make me want to leave. I can’t worry about the future or I’ll drive myself crazy!

The list goes on and on, and I just become more and more baffled by humanity. I have to unplug sometimes because I can’t let the world get to me. I’m just so heartbroken, and it will only lead me to those dark places that I just recently crawled out of.

With all of that being said, I’m going to continue just being me. I’m going to let my love flow and maybe it will reach the ears of someone who desperately needs a wake up call, or someone who needs a friend and needs to hear that they are not alone. I genuinely care about the well being of others, and while I think people SHOULD (I know, there’s that word again) care, I have to accept the fact there are people in this world who are evil. I don’t want to believe that, and I still do think everyone has kindness in them somewhere, even if it’s just the tip of their pinky toe.

With all of that being said, I want to spend my life doing more of the things I love. I make an effort to live in the moment, because life is short and no one is promised tomorrow. I need to be better about making plans to travel, see the sights I most want to see, and spending as much time as I can with people I love.

There is so much more to life than just working and paying bills! 

I encourage every single one of you (once this pandemic is over, of course. Be responsible and stay home for the time being, please) to take more pictures, say “I love you,” more often, and let your love flow. Because those of us who really do care are the only ones who can show how genuine this gift really is!

Love & life lessons,

Kristian