Just Dance It Out

lets dance

I have been trapped in my own head lately, and to be completely honest, the past 3 weeks have been absolute hell, sans the weekends.

Against my better judgement I have allowed my emotions to control me and I allowed said emotions to control my work ethic, or rather, lack there of. I am so far behind, and I have no one to blame but myself, and I knew, I remember thinking that this was going to come around to bite my perfectionist ass, and it has, tenfold! So now, I feel like I can’t even breathe because I have piles upon piles of paperwork that needs my attention, but I have to keep pushing it to the back burner because I have a lot of people who need me to electronically file their taxes, and since it’s their money, I have to give that priority, everything else just has to wait, but the stress of it all is getting the best of me.

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I want to go into a dark room, by myself, and cry and scream my frustrations out, but that’s not possible right now. And even if I could take time off work, it would only put me even further behind!

I have been down this road before, and I’ve never liked the outcome, so I’m pulling up my big girl boy-shorts,( <– that sounds like an oxymoron,) and dealing with it, because that’s what strong, determined women do, and I am an exceptionally strong and determined woman.

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So instead of allowing my anger and frustration to consume me, I poured myself a glass of butterscotch wine, and put on the blues.

The blues with the dirty sounding guitar that sinks its teeth into my veins and takes control of my body! This is just what I needed, especially after a long lavender bubble bath which helped relax my muscles.

This was exactly what I needed, I could literally feel the tension leave my body with each sway of my hips and thrust of my pelvis. I love the power this genre of music has over me. I become this woman that I don’t normally recognize when I look in the mirror. She is confident, fearless, sexy, and unapologetic for doing whatever it is she needs to do for her own sanity. I really need to allow this woman to come out to play more often!

stress dance

So if you find yourself feeling weighed down by all of your trials, failures, and future goals that seem impossibly out of reach, maybe this music will take over your body until you find yourself on your knees, allowing the stress to pour out of your body with each note that passes through you. Just like it does for me.

Love & life lessons,

Kristian

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21 Responses to Just Dance It Out

  1. Reely Bernie says:

    Butterscotch wine? Sounds yummy. Ah, the blues… sounds like a good evening with Robert Johnson for me 🙂

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  2. Sadje says:

    Yup! Music is the answer in many cases. Hope you get a handle on your work situation.

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  3. Brad Osborne says:

    I wrote two comments and then deleted them. What seemed like intrusive advice did not pass the re-read test. So, here is what I am left with. I hate thinking of you feeling this way. I want to make it stop and I can’t. So, all I can do is remind you I am here and I care. Other then that, I will just worry about you until things get better. I know that doesn’t help at all, but what else is a friend to do?

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    • kristianw84 says:

      Aww. I really do appreciate your thoughts & concern. 😘 I can’t imagine you being intrusive, and I’m always open to advice, but thank you for wanting to help. I’m fine, really! There are things out of my control & I’ve learned to let those go, but now I must focus & get back on track. It’s a new day & I’ll get there eventually. Fortunately my work performance is usually above & beyond what is expected, so it shouldn’t take me long to catch up, & I can only do what I can in the hours I’m given, maybe this will be a lesson to upper management that I am only a mere human after all! 😊

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  4. The V Pub says:

    I love this post! Rock on, Kristian!
    Here’s one for you:

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  5. heatherjo says:

    I completely understand. Feeling overwhelmed can be extremely suffocating. What helps me is prayer (Philippians 4:6,7), exercise and sleep. This provides peace and enough clear thinking to get through things. Sending prayers and love your way.

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  6. neilweigman82 says:

    That’s the strong sexy woman I married. I’m so proud of you for being able to work at such a suck hole, be a wife and still have fun and be (semi)sane. I love you

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  7. sundaymorningwithsandy.com says:

    Yes – Dancing does the trick!! Even better, is a night out on a dance floor! xo

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  8. parkermccoy says:

    Those dirty dishes. They sure don’t stop coming. How do they multiply so fast? Haha. Great post, Kristian!

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