i lift my skirt
up to my knees
walk through the field of sunflowers
barefoot and laughing
you see i’ve learned
to count my blessings –
to stop and smell the flowers
and feel the sun shine upon my face
still it’s hard
not to dwell on all my heartache’s
i walk on through this field
through the grass
grown brown and still
not comprehending why
it’s so damn hard
to let go of my pain
and past these flowers
sits an old ford truck
broken, rusted, and
sinking into this field
collecting drops of rain
and it’s hard not to
feel empathy for this
broken piece of metal
but still I see the beauty
that remains
and looking back
on all these crimson sunsets
in these foggy
cut-throat mornings
i have grown weary
and if i spoke these words
from the dark and cobwebbed
corners of my mind
if i let them slip passed
my dried and cracked lips
would anyone even hear me?
if you were here
i’d let my blouse fall to the floor
and the braids fall from my hair
then i’d kiss you
with my quivering mouth
so plain
outside the rain
would beat upon our
metal roof
and the thunder
would applaud
the love we make
they say god doesn’t give us
more than we can carry
well I don’t know that I believe in god
but I do believe in love
for it is the only thing
that has kept me sane
there’s something you must understand
i have looked my demons in the eyes
laid bare breasted on the floor
and told them to do their best
to destroy me
And i’ve been to hell
and back
so many times
i must admit
this simple life
sometimes seems boring
there’s a lot of things
that can kill a person
there’s a lot of ways to die
but yet these heavy burdened ghosts
still walk beside me
and there’s a lot of things
i don’t understand
how so much hatred
can fill the heart of a man
but it’s this pain i hide
that fuels the love
inside me
will i always feel this way –
not good enough to save anyone
and time keeps changing
but everything continues
to remain the same
Poem is by yours truly
image found on Flickr
Love & life lessons,
Kristian
Very moving poem.
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Thank you!!
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You’re welcome Kristian
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Evocative, expressive, raw, unfiltered, poignant and powerful! It feels like these words were pulled directly out of you and placed on the page. I feel you! What a gift to express your self so openly and honestly! This is a great piece of writing!
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Thank you so much!! ❤❤ I greatly appreciate your support!
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