everything remains the same

i lift my skirt

up to my knees

walk through the field of sunflowers

barefoot and laughing

 

you see i’ve learned

to count my blessings –

to stop and smell the flowers

and feel the sun shine upon my face

still it’s hard

not to dwell on all my heartache’s

 

i walk on through this field

through the grass

grown brown and still

not comprehending why

it’s so damn hard

to let go of my pain

 

and past these flowers

sits an old ford truck

broken, rusted, and

sinking into this field

collecting drops of rain

 

and it’s hard not to

feel empathy for this

broken piece of metal

but still I see the beauty

that remains

 

and looking back

on all these crimson sunsets

in these foggy

cut-throat mornings

i have grown weary

 

and if i spoke these words

from the dark and cobwebbed

corners of my mind

if i let them slip passed

my dried and cracked lips

would anyone even hear me?

 

if you were here

i’d let my blouse fall to the floor

and the braids fall from my hair

then i’d kiss you

with my quivering mouth

so plain

 

outside the rain

would beat upon our

metal roof

and the thunder

would applaud

the love we make

 

they say god doesn’t give us

more than we can carry

well I don’t know that I believe in god

but I do believe in love

for it is the only thing

that has kept me sane

 

there’s something you must understand

i have looked my demons in the eyes

laid bare breasted on the floor

and told them to do their best

to destroy me

 

And i’ve been to hell

and back

so many times

i must admit

this simple life

sometimes seems boring

 

there’s a lot of things

that can kill a person

there’s a lot of ways to die

but yet these heavy burdened ghosts

still walk beside me

 

and there’s a lot of things

i don’t understand

how so much hatred

can fill the heart of a man

but it’s this pain i hide

that fuels the love

inside me

 

will i always feel this way –

not good enough to save anyone

and time keeps changing

but everything continues

to remain the same

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Poem is by yours truly

image found on Flickr

Love & life lessons,

Kristian