I have learned that I am extremely clumsy, laugh at the most inappropriate times, and will unintentionally divert attention to myself. I have accepted this & embrace it, and just laugh it off, but sometimes it’s completely out of my control and my body will make involuntary noises, which leads me to:
I refer to it as Random Hiccup Syndrome, (RHS for short.) It happened yesterday while meeting with the CEO of the agency I work for, along with a few very important state funders we like to rub elbows with. I opened my mouth to speak on the data I had collected for the funds those funders have so graciously granted our agency and without warning, the loudest, highest pitched yelp/hiccup that anyone has ever hiccuped came from the pit of my stomach, leaving my face as red as a hydrant and me offering my sincerest apologies, followed by a string of random hiccups in between words. These aren’t normal hiccups. Sometimes, I only have 1, other times a few more, and then they stop, but they come out of nowhere, I haven’t been laughing hysterically or drank anything carbonated, and there are no warning signs, they just come whenever I start to speak.
Does this happen to anyone else? No, just me?…okay, then.
My friend Christen saw “Joker” recently and she sent me a SnapChat telling me that I must go see it. Her boyfriend left the theater saying “Sympathy for the devil.”
Christen and I are both empathetic people, and I know why she wants me to watch this movie, because she knows, just like it did for her, it will pull at my heart strings.
I was trying to explain this to Neil last night, it’s sometimes hard being so empathetic because it doesn’t have an off switch. And sometimes I feel bad for the antagonist, and I don’t just mean in fictional stories.
Alright, I know what you’re probably thinking, “But Kristian, isn’t the antagonist the villain? You feel bad for the villain? Even in REAL LIFE?!?!”
Hear me out. I do feel bad for certain “villains” I can’t help it, but this does NOT mean I condone their behavior. Violence, murder, etc.. it’s bad, it’s wrong, it’s badong! (Kudos to those of you who got that line.) Seriously, there’s no excuse for it, but sometimes, I understand. Does that make sense? I think it’s why I’m fascinated with serial killers and finding out how their minds work. Now when it’s someone who kills just for the simple act of killing “I shot a man in Reno, just to watch him die.” Yeah, that just turns my stomach, although I love that song by Johnny Cash! I’m talking about the Charlie Brown types, the people who have been made fun of & put down their whole lives, the people who have been abandoned by loved ones they trusted, who have had their own mother turn their backs on them and tell them they’ll never amount to anything. Again, I don’t condone their behavior. Just because someone was shitty to you does not give you the excuse to be shitty, but I do understand, and yes, even feel bad. I can’t help it. I reiterate, there’s no off switch.
I haven’t seen “Joker” yet, but I am looking forward to watching it.
Have you seen it? What we’re your thoughts? Do you agree with Christen and her boyfriend, a sympathy for the devil story?
So I will end this totally random and different subjects post on a good note. As many of you know I am big into crafts, and one of the things I LOVE to make is wreaths. Well, I often make wreaths for other people, and the one wreath I had not made for myself is a Halloween wreath (I know, the shame!! Oh, the shame!!) BUT….I did it, I made myself a SPOOKtacular Halloween wreath for my front door this year!!!
And for those of you on Instagram, there is also a video of this wreath, along with a flirtatious picture of me & the Pumpkin King! 😉
Stay weird and great!
Wishing all of you FANGtabulous weekend (Ya’all are just going to have to put up with my Halloween puns for the month of October.)
Love & life lessons,