The next two days flew by and Tuesday morning came rearing its ugly head. I woke up early so I could spend some time with Jared before he had to head to the airport. I sat in his lap all morning, stealing as many kisses as I could.
“When will you know when you’ll be returning?”
“I’ll know more details later today. I’ll call you as soon as I get to Alaska, and I’ll keep you updated on details.”
I tried so hard to hold back my tears, but I couldn’t, “I’m so sorry.”
“Awe, please don’t apologize sweetheart. I’ve never felt so loved in all my life.”
I wrapped my arms around his neck, “I do love you so much!”
He held me close and stroked my hair, reassuring me that everything was going to be fine, but when I looked at him, he had tears streaming down his face.
He managed to smile my favorite smile. “I already miss you.”
“I miss you too, Jared.”
I watched him as he drove off. He waved as he neared the end of the driveway and I blew him kisses. I watched until I could no longer see his tail lights and then came the water works.
I composed myself and went to the Blue Haven room, where I collapsed on the bed, taking in his scent, and listening to the playlist he made for me. I eventually cried myself to sleep
The ringing of my phone startled me awake, and I jumped up to answer it, hoping it was Jared, I wasn’t sure how long I had been asleep.
My aunt just wanted to check on things, and she could tell by my tone that I had been crying. I explained the situation to her, and even she assured me that he would be fine. She even shared a few stories he had shared with her. A couple I had already heard, but they were about Jared, so I didn’t mind listening again.
Hours passed and I couldn’t bring myself to cook, so I poured myself a bowl of cereal and a cup of hot tea and threw on Jared’s hoodie that he purposefully left behind.
The hours continued to pass and I continued to grow more nervous. I paced, I tried reading, I painted, anything to keep my mind occupied, and finally, around 5:00 pm, he called.
“It’s so good to hear your voice, gorgeous.”
I smiled as if he could see me. “I was getting worried.”
“I’m sorry, love. The flight was delayed, my phone died, and then after we arrived I had to help Mr. Campbell with some of the cargo. It looks like I’ll be in Anchorage for 2 weeks, sweetheart.”
I sighed, Two weeks wasn’t terrible, but it was long enough.
We chatted for a while. He had multiple assignments and would be flying quite a bit, but he promised to call me every day, even if it was only for a minute or two. I gave him my home address so he could write me after I left the bed and breakfast and returned to my normal life. I was actually looking forward to going back to work, it would keep my mind occupied.
I had the hardest time falling asleep that night. I looked over at the clock and it was 2:00 am. I was half tempted to just get up, but I had decided to sleep in the Blue Haven room for the remainder of my stay and his scent was still lingering, and it brought be comfort. Jared must have been having trouble sleeping too because I heard the text message alert I had set for him.
I hope this doesn’t wake you my dear, but I’m missing you terribly. No, scratch that. I literally crave you. I can’t wait to feel your arms around me, the feel of your soft skin against mine. I can’t wait to taste your kiss, and hold you close to me. I’m not letting you go for days, just so you know. I’d give anything to gaze into your eyes and hear your laugh. Oh, girl, look what you’ve done to me. Anyway, I hope you’re sleeping well and that this message brings a smile to your face when you arise. I love you, Angela. – J
I can’t sleep, baby. And now I can’t stop the tears, how I long to be with you, Jared. To feel your arms wrapped around me, your lips pressed against my skin. I want to see that smile I love so much and hear your sweet laugh. I’m counting down the days until I see you again. – A
I’m sorry you can’t sleep my love, but I’m so happy to hear from you. I feel like all I’ve done these past few days is make you cry. 😦 – J
I assure you, Jared, they are mostly tears of joy. The only tears of sadness is from the distance I feel, but it’s only because my heart is so full of love. I think we have found something that most people search their entire lives for. We are lucky, and I have thanked God every day since I met you for bringing you into my life. – A
You’ve brought a smile to my face, sweet Angela. I too am counting down the days until I see you again. – J
We talked for a while before we decided to try and sleep. I tossed and turned but sleep finally did come and I dreamt of Jared the remainder of the night.
The days seemed to go by more slowly, but I looked forward to Jared’s morning texts, occasional midday calls, and he always found time to call me in the evenings, just as he promised.
My aunt came home a couple of days early, which was nice, I got to spend some time with her, and it helped make the days not feel so long.
It was my last day at the bed and breakfast and the text message that morning from Jared was warning me that I might not hear from him until late. He was flying out that day. He didn’t say where he was going. I wished him safe travels and told him I loved him, and spent the remainder of my time with my aunt. Night came and I stayed up till midnight, there was still no word from him. I tried not to worry, he told me that I might not hear from him until late, but I couldn’t help but worry, especially since the weather in Anchorage was calling for snow, and I had no idea where he was flying.
I managed to fall asleep, but it wasn’t restful. I immediately checked my phone as soon as I woke up, but there was still no word. I didn’t want to bother him, maybe his phone died, or maybe he was so tired he just went straight to bed and he was still sleeping, after all, Seattle is an hour ahead of Anchorage.
I was happy to make the hour trip back to my home, I needed to buy groceries, do laundry, and get ready for work tomorrow. I checked my phone throughout the day, there was still no word from him. I sent him a text message simply asking if he was okay, but as night fell again with no word from him, I could no longer control my worry. I called him, but all I got was his voicemail.
Something was wrong, I could feel it. Something was terribly, terribly wrong.
To be continued….
….. In the novel. I have decided to turn this into a book. I will let all of you know when it is published. I have some other projects going on, but I really seem to be running with this one. So I have put the others on hold for now. Anyway, what you have read so far will be included in the book, however; there might be some changes, and there will definitely be additions. I’m so excited!! Wish me luck!!
Love & life lessons,