Me In A Song

John, author of the Eclectic Contrarian created this tag, and how can I resist anything that deals with music?

In John’s own words:

Have you a song that you think are just about you? I challenge you to post it! (Or them)

Rules:

Post song(s) and tell why they’re about you.

You may nominate others but don’t have to. This is about getting to know you and having fun.

This. Is. Kristian! (Did you read that like “This. Is. Sparta?” That’s how it went in my head. Haha!)

In The Blood by John Mayer

This phrase especially:

“How much of my mother has my mother left in me?
How much of my love will be insane to some degree?
And what about this feeling that I’m never good enough?
Will it wash out in the water, or is it always in the blood?”

I have spoke before of my issues with my mom. I love her dearly and she was a wonderful woman and mother, however; there are somethings she said and did that just made me feel like she was putting me down.

I’ve been heartbroken so many times, and the words and actions of even some of the people I love most in this world, or at the very least, I held dear to me at one time still remain, and those words and actions make me feel like a part of me will never be good enough for anyone or anything. I’ve come a long way, but those thoughts still creep in from time to time.

The very first time I heard this song I was driving in my car and I had to pull over and let John Mayer’s words just flow over me. I felt them so deeply, I felt like he looked into my soul and wrote the words I had written there. It moved me to tears, and it still gives me chills at how much these lyrics get me.

 

Unforgiven II by Metallica

Think what you will of my beloved Metallica, but they are not always the heavy and angry souls people tend to associate with Heavy Metal. These lyrics are so deep and they touch my heart. There are very few people on this planet whom I feel truly understand me, but when I find those connections, I hold on as tightly as I can. I have found that it’s the broken, the scarred, and the beaten souls that connect with mine the most.

 

Landslide by Fleetwood Mac

Stevie Nicks says that this song has many meanings, she wrote it for Lindsey, but she also wrote it before her dad died, realizing that her world was about to crumble down around her. I’ve always got that, this song always made me feel the strong connection I have with my own father, and after losing my mother and realizing how fast time continues to go I just dread losing him all the more, but I know one day I’m going to face that too. I also worry that my husband is going to make me a widow while I’m still fairly young, and then what? The line “Well I’ve been afraid of changin’ cause I’ve built my life around you,” really strikes a nerve with me now….

I’m sure if I really wanted to delve further I could think of even more songs I identify with, but I’m going to stop here because the tears are flowing pretty freely now.

I took my love, I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills
‘Till the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?Can the child within my heart rise above?

Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?

Well, I’ve been afraid of changing
‘Cause I’ve built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I’m getting older too

Well, I’ve been afraid of changing
‘Cause I’ve built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I’m getting older too
Oh, I’m getting older too

Oh, take my love, take it down
Oh, climb a mountain and turn around
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down, oh oh
The landslide will bring it down

Thank you for creating this tag John, despite the tears, I really enjoyed it!

Love & life lessons,

Kristian