Random Thoughts #2 – Connections

connections

For as far back as I can remember, I have been a very deep person. I have this amazing ability (only recently have I learned how truly amazing it is) to feel things so deeply, they evoke emotions in me I find hard to describe. I feel strong connections with beautiful souls,  the brokenhearted, and creative minds.

I am able to read people, their body language speaks louder than their words, and I’m empathetic, so I’m able to feel those emotions that their energy is sending out. I think this is why music and movies affect me so deeply on an emotional level. I don’t just hear the lyrics, I can feel the emotion behind it. I think this is why I find the song Hallelujah written by Leonard Cohen to be one of those most beautiful and touching pieces of all time. Those words are coming from a place of pain, and I can empathize with him.

I get so close to fictional characters, because even though that particular character may not exist, the writer behind him or her sure does, and those feelings had to develop somewhere.

There’s a line from the song “All You Need Is Love,” by the Beatles that goes “There’s nothing you can know that isn’t known, nothing you can see that can’t be shown, no where you can be, that isn’t where you’re meant to be.” There’s a lot of things going on in my life right now that don’t make sense. I have so many unanswered questions, and to be quite honest, I’m left feeling a little lost. The more and more I talk about this with those closest to me, I find that they understand, some of them are in the same boat, so we’re just rowing along together, trying to figure out the mysteries of life, together! But what a special feeling, although we may get sad, and feel lonely, we truly aren’t alone, and sometimes just reaching out to someone, letting them know that there are people who care about them is important.

A friend of mine recently told me that “Because while we all find the gave, not many of us know how to live.” I have read those words over and over and over, it has become my mantra! I need to print them out, put them on a plaque and hang it somewhere as a reminder. Somewhere, where I will see it every. single. day. Because, he’s right! Life is so short and no one is promised tomorrow.

I have often kept things inside, didn’t speak out because I was too afraid of what people might think, but you know what I’ve come to realize, as my birthday inches closer, and I’m yet another year older? It’s really none of my business what anyone thinks about me!

So if you’ve had any sort of impact on my life, If I feel a connection to you, if something you write speaks to me, I’m going to let you know, because I think it’s important to support the artists, to show that I see you, the person behind your words, and paintings, and music! I see your pain, I recognize your heartache, and your loss, and my dear friend, my heart is with yours. I don’t know that my words will ever bring you any comfort, but I hope in some way, you feel me too, and I hope you know that if you’re feeling down, or lost, or like the weight of the world is crushing your shoulders, you have someone who cannot do anything about that, but is willing to help carry the weight with you.

There’s a song by Ray Lamantagne called “Let it Be Me.” This song is one of those songs that the first time I heard it, I had to stop whatever I was doing, and just allow his words to wash over me. I felt the sadness in the music, and I heard the beauty in his words, and I fell in love with his voice.

What a beautiful way to show compassion for someone. To say let me be that person to help carry your burden, let me be the person you run to when it feels like no one understand you, when you feel lost and broken, and you need a friend, let it  be me. Is there a better way to tell someone you care about them? I don’t think so.

If you feel like the pain is consuming you, if the grief is rising up and you just feel like all of your energy has been zapped, and all you want to do is stay in bed and let the world continue to pass you by, if you feel like it’s getting harder and harder to cope and you have nowhere to turn, I hope you know you have someone you can turn to, who may not fully understand, but see’s you.

Let it be me.

Love & life lessons,

Kristian

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2 Responses to Random Thoughts #2 – Connections

  1. The Eclectic Contrarian says:

    You’re a “feeler” one of those who can see behind the outward appearance or the facade to see the truth in people.

    I like to think I’m one of those sorts. I guess that’s why I read random blogs, looking for others to connect to. It’s an amazing experience. And a lonely one.

    Great post!

    Liked by 2 people

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