Hello, my dear readers,
My heart is so heavy today, there are so many people I love struggling, and there’s absolutely nothing I can do to make it better. I love that I have this amazing gift to feel things so deeply, however; sometimes I struggle with it, especially when I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders and it just keeps pushing me further and further down. The only way I know how to describe it is to imagine that you are laying on the floor, on your stomach and an elephant is sitting on your back while you are trying to get up. That’s how I feel right now. After talking with my friend, Amanda, & my cousin, Caitlyn over the weekend I have learned a very important lesson:
It is okay to NOT be okay, and friends, I am not okay.
I especially struggle because it is times like this when I really need my mom. She was the BEST advice giver, she always knew just what to say to calm me down, or she would wrap me in one of her big hugs and cry with me, but no matter the issue, she brought me comfort, and I feel lost without her. What do you do when one of your anchors is no longer here, and the other one is in the hospital currently dealing with a bad hand he’s been dealt?
If I’m completely honest, I’m angry right now, incandescent with rage, and I I hate this feeling, but I’m not sure how to make it stop. I’ve always been able to see the good, always been able to find the positive, but I’m struggling to find anything good about these situations that weigh so heavy on my heart, and it’s making me bitter.
I need some positivity, so if you could send words of encouragement and positive vibes, I’d greatly appreciate it.
Love & Life Lessons,