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Week 52: Did this challenge change you?

I have always tried to be grateful for everything, so I can’t say that this challenge has changed me dramatically, however; this challenge did help me to see that I have not been the same Kristian I was before my mom passed away. I realize that’s okay, because a part of me died that day too, but when someone comes to you and says “Remember that time when the entire office was having a bad day and everyone was on edge, and you came along throwing confetti on all of our desks and it was so random, that it made every single one of us laugh, where is that Kristian? I miss that Kristian!” it is a slap in the face. I don’t want to be someone who is not happy. I want to get back to the confetti throwing, dance party for 1, singing at the top of my lungs and making heads turn Kristian. This challenge has helped me realize that I am already grateful for things and people, but it made me be grateful for the things I have inside me. I am a very kind soul, I’m a hard worker, I’m dedicated, and loyal. I have a lot to offer in every aspect. I am a great friend, employee, spouse, lover, sister, daughter, etc… I always try to be humble, I don’t like to boast, but by remaining quiet I tend to get taken advantage of. People realize I’m smart & nice, so they think they can give me more work to do, and I’ll do it with a smile and not expect anything in return, this hinders me in many ways. It weakens my spirit, it stresses me out. I should recognize my strengths, I should know the qualities that I bring to the table, and I should not only expect, but DEMAND respect! No longer will I let people abuse me and take advantage of my kindness. So I guess this challenge has changed me, just not in the way I was expecting.

I can’t believe it’s been a year since I started this challenge. I am so excited to share more of my thoughts, project, and life with you, my lovely readers! As always, please don’t hesitate to reach out to me if you need a friend, an ear, or anything else!

Here’s to a healthy, happy, and prosperous 2017!!

Love & life lessons,

Kristian